Thank god for letting me get out of the fry thing. If I only eat one meal a day, fries can't be THAT bad, right? I just need to remember to eat a vegetable now and then.

I only have been visted by Jehovah's Witnesses once, when I was about 8. They left me books that they said they'd come back to collect the money for (I was home alone, and answered the door because they had children with them). My mom was LIVID when they came back - it was the first time I had ever heard her really scream at someone. She practically threw the books back in their faces (she was pissed that they wanted something like $50.00 from an eight year old).

Target is awesome!!! There's not really much designer stuff, but it's got a little bit of everything. The website doesn't do it justice, so don't bother looking there. Do you have Walmart? A target is like a much, much nicer, cleaner, well-organized, well-staffed, and better producted (I think I just made up a word) version of Walmart. And they do have little designer specials every now and then, but that stuff sells out quickly. I just like browsing their home section, and all their different holiday stuff.

Both places are pretty - but did you notice how SLC is mostly gray and Walnut Creek was really green? And Walnut Creek is only about 15 minutes from Oakland, and 25 minutes from San Francisco. I just miss tha green.

I think, maybe, just because I am SOOOO winning this thin race of ours, that I may walk around the block a couple times tonight with my kid. That will make up for the pizza I'm eating tonight that I promised M-Dog.

Are you totally excited to hear about Qatar tomorrow? When would you have to move? You need to learn to slap some bitches to put them Qatar Hos in their second-status place! What!??! Oh no she didn't....

Ok! I'll join the thin race! My goal will be to lose at least 42 more pounds by the end of the year (for a total of 65 lbs. lost). I'll still have about 60 more to go, but losing 65 will have me looking a lot better than I do now.

My face is deceiving, and I think it helps because I have wide cheekbones. But I'm pretty well over 200 pounds. My body image fits my actual body pretty well.

Ugg - honestly, most missionaries are nice, but I still find them annoying. I am very polite, because I grew up around Mormons and I still have a lot of friends who are Mormons, but honestly, I just don't want to be a part of it anymore. And because I'm a lapsed member, I often get on lists and have a bunch of people call me. My daughter attends church on her own (it was very fun to be raised Mormon - there are lots of youth activities) and the adults there keep bugging me. D'oh! I need to move again to escape it all.

SLC is on the edge of a desert, but is saved from being one because of the Wasatch Front - we have beautiful mountains here. It's a fairly gorgeous place to live, but I'm used to the Bay Area of California, which is LOTS of green, green rolling hills, and mountains. I miss that.

The country sounds fantastic. I really want to live on a ranch, and have nearly my whole life. Just some land, a nice house, and about 10-20 minutes from a town of around 10,000. Then within an hour of a town that has a Target. I am a little obsessed with Target.

Miranda really wants a dad, but I don't know how much she wants her actual dad in her life. She's a pretty fair person, and I think she'd be pretty suspicious if her dad suddenly wanted back in her life. BUT, maybe when she's much older she'd want to be a part of his life. I don't know though - his whole family is a little bit messed up.

If I could live anywhere, I'm honestly not sure where I'd go. I'd have to find a place like I described, and then head there. That's why I'm thinking Pac NW, or Montana, or a few of the places I've seen (only in pictures) in Alberta. So it's kinda rad that you said there are a lot of jobs there.

Maybe this thin race will give me motivation to give up the french fries!

I love your signature! It's like Chuck Norris - which I'm sure you're already aware of. There should be one involving Chuck Norris and Matt Bellamy, where Matt wins, of course.

Umm...so I went to check my messages, and I think I posted that photo of myself on my own page. It was when "Doris" went down. D'oh! So, here it is again, just in case:

PREPARE TO BE HORRIFIED!

I hope that works...

Umm - not quite like I meant it to work...D'oh!

x

It's not too bad being here. I was raised Mormon, but it's kinda funny - my mom was raised in SLC, but was NOT Mormon (she converted when she was 18) and is a liberal democrat. My dad, however, was raised in Berkeley, CA, and went to UC Berkeley during all the protests for the Vietnam war, but he was raised Mormon and is a more conservative republican. Anyhow - the family on my mom's side here are, for the most part, not Mormon, and very liberal. Any place where the majority is one way, you'll end up with a very vocal minority that strives to be the opposite way.

But I don't like SLC - the air is too dry, I hate the heat in the summer, and I want to live where everything is more green. If Canada doesn't work out, I think I may head to the Pacific Northwest.

I really don't think he'll want to be in her life. His family has no idea of her existence, and so far he's only told one woman he dated (and I think that's because she questioned him about why money was missing from his paycheck each month). I'm much nicer in the things I say about him - if you were to hear from a couple of my friends, they'd only use cuss words to describe him.

I'm not a registered Native - I was adopted into a white family, and I've had a really tough time getting info from my birth mother. She's kind of nutty and a bit of a bitch. She won't give me my birth father's name, either, even though he was in her life for awhile, and wanted to marry her, and even got a lawyer to try and keep me from being adopted. I'm in the process of asking for birth records from the state, so hopefully I can find out more info.

I'm sure you're back from the potluck already - but I always just take drinks to things like that - or chips, or something. I'm a good cook, but I'm too lazy to actually cook.

So where did you grow up? And if you could live ANYWHERE, where would you live?

I'll try and get some photos uploaded. I took a couple of myself in the "myspace fashion" at 1:30am, with no make-up on, and crazy hair. So I look just loverly.

Hey Cutie!

How do you upload pictures on here? Do I have to first get a photobucket account, or something?

M's dad wasn't interested in being a dad. He really wanted me to get an abortion, and was kind of an ass about it. He has never wanted to meet her, and has only accepted one picture of her when she was around a year old (he refused a picture another time I offered, and hasn't asked for one, ever). He pays child support each month though, and hasn't missed a payment. I think he's more scared of his mom finding out he has a kid, than he actually cares about taking responsibility.

sad face to your friend - it can't be healthy to want to be slapped in the face. And the guy who likes doing stuff like that to women can't be healthy either!

Alberta sounds like it's a whole lotta nothing with a few cities scattered about - but I'm a bit of a recluse and I like nature, so it might work out well for me. I'll start looking into jobs there. I'm not sure if anyone would hire someone from out of the country, but here's hopin'!

Well - I don't know if it's such a bad attitude to think I'll never be thin. I really just want to feel healthy. If I feel healthy, I know I'll be ALOT healthier than I am right now, and that's my ultimate goal - to be healthy, and just feel comfortable as I am. And I kinda want a guy who wouldn't mind pattin' my tummy anyhow!

How big is the city you're in? What kind of stuff do you like doing besides mixing alcohols on a Friday night?

PS - Send me a photo of you. All I can picture is that "cool cat" rat.

I read the other day that people who weighed themselves every day lost more weight and kept it off, than those who don't, so I'm trying to remember to weigh myself every morning. Especially because if I keep forgetting and don't weigh myself for a week, then I get really nervous and try to avoid the scale.

Umm - being spanked and being hit are too VERY different things. So if she meant spanked, good deal - if she meant hit, then she may have been abused previously. A lot of women who like to actually be hit during sex were sexually abused when they were younger. So, obviously, not good.

My daughter is Miranda. She's a cutie and super smart. That's a picture of her to the left (she was being a walrus by putting straws in her mouth).

I think I would like Alberta! Mostly because Jasper is there! I moved to SLC hoping to get up to Jackson, WY and Yellowstone more often (it's six hours away), but no cigar - six hours means staying at least one night over, and it's just too expensive. But if I lived in Edmonton or Calgary, I'd only be two to three hours from Jasper (of course I could live in Jasper itself, but it's so small, jobs may be scarce).

I like my feet, because my toes go down in a nice line, rather than the second toe being longer than the big toe (I always think those toes look bad in sandals - sorry if those are the kind of toes you have) - but I still wouldn't want anyone kissing them, and I certainly don't want to kiss anyone else's toes. Egad.

Body shame is at least somewhat motivating. I want to just get down to a size where I feel good about myself, and not like I have to worry so much about what other people think. I know I shouldn't worry about what other people think, but I still do. And get to the point where a guy could touch my stomach and I woudln't go, "No no no no no no no no...let's not ever do that again..." Which doesn't take much, honestly. I will never ever be thin, or look good in a bathing suit, but I can get to the point where I'm comfortable in my own skin. Hell - I remember like, a year after I had my daughter not worrying about how my body looked, and it certainly didn't look great AND I was still overweight - so I guess I just need to go from that dreaded obese catagory to the less offensive "overweight" catagory.

So, I could always tell you if I've lost any pounds, and you can always tell me if your clothes are fitting a little looser!

I'm totally laughing at the naughty sissy part. Yea - I'm not so into that. I still like my men to be men. Actually - I'm not really into the whole domination/submission thing - I'm really just into having good sex. I tried some of those sites before, and actually met a couple friends on there (real friends, not friends), but for the most part, guys just wanted to make me kiss their feet, or something. Errm...no thanks.

Nice on the pay part. I used to earn about the USD equivilent to that, until the recession hit and I got my loser job. I'll start looking at that website you gave me this weekend, and get my resume out. I'd honestly rather live in a city that's a bit easier to access, but Whitehorse didn't look too bad. Yellowknife (I think that was the name...) was ok - the third was just wayyyy too far out there. And too cold.

Honestly, without getting into my body shame too much, I'm doubting we're in the same boat. Let's put it this way - I don't think Urban Outfitters offers my size. So yea...

I don't have a beer issue - I have a fry issue. Not fried foods in general, just fries. I love french fries. Arrgggg. I'm actually fairly good about not eating too much red meat, or other fried foods, or ice cream/donuts/etc. - but I'm really bad about eating fries. I tried to give up fries for Lent (I've never done Lent before, and I thought maybe it would be some motivation), but it totally didn't work when three days after Lent started, I realized I had eaten fries the night before. D'oh!

We should chronicle how many pounds we're able to lose each week with one another. That might give me some motivation! I'd rather be able to honestly say I lost at least one pound, then have to say I lost zero.

Well - I'd have to get the Spanx out to get the pencil skirt on.

Being a librarian tech would be nice. I worked in a library when I was in high school for a semester, and loved it. I'm a book hoarder - I have a ton of books I haven't even gotten around to reading yet, but I can't NOT buy them. I don't want to pry, and I don't need an exact figure - but do library techs earn fairly good money?

I only asked about fetishes because a lot of girls who like to dominate, also love to see the men in ladies undies. Some don't - but I think it's fairly common. Anyhow - something to think about if you're looking for a lady who loves men in women's clothing.

The gym five days a week is insane! (Insanely good, not bad.) I'm starting to do a bit more, but I'm going slow so I don't burn myself out, and then screw up all the progress I've made. I'm eating better (not great - but overall, I'm eating less calories than I used to) and I'm walking up and down the stairs a million times at work. I've lost 23 pounds, and kept it off, but I've sort of plateaued. I need to seriously step it up though - there's no snow on the ground, so I really should start walking around the block - maybe my kid and I can make it a game to see who can get around first, or something.

I'm still jealous - deal with it!

What is your job? Are you a librarian or do you do something else in the library? Do you have a link to a job listing site? A town between 5,000 and 20,000 actually sounds pretty good. I wouldn't mind living in a smaller town. The hardest part would not be living near a Target, but I could get over it. How far are you from a larger town? Is there a fairly large airport within about two hours of those cities you mentioned? I'm asking a lot of questions - so maybe I should just do the damn research myself and check out Wikipedia.

Don't worry so much about others - if a girl has a problem with your clothes, then she's not the right girl for you. And you're 22, and you have plenty of time.

I don't know if you're into being (there's no real delicate way to say this) a bit dominated in the bedroom - but if so, then there's LOTS of chicks out there for ya - and there's lots of websites where you can find them. LoL - the Internet is full of possibilities, and not all of them are skanky or STD ridden, either! (Although, there ARE plenty of those kinds, too. D'oh!)

Florals ARE really in right now - they just make me nervous. Purples, grays, and browns - I'm all about those colors.

I'll look around and see if I can find any dark purple cardigans!

Also - I'm just gonna say it - I'm totally jealous that you have the cash and the figure to pull of a pencil skirt. I need to never eat cookies again - and then get lipo as well.

Nice to meet you Kyle! I'm Eliza.

I think a lot of women really like it (men crossdressing). Some women get really turned on by the idea of their man wearing their underwear, etc. I think sometimes it's just about the clothes, and sometimes it's more S&M goodies.

Also - what makes a man in woman's clothes less masculine? I mean - I get it - a dress is considered feminine, but what about attitude? A man can still be a man and be in a dress. Who a person is, is far more important than what a person wears. Thank god, because while I might have great theoretical style, my actual style leaves a lot to be desired. I'm too fat and too poor to wear nice clothes.

So I gather you're moving to Qatar? Is that the second interview you had (I saw you post that in that Jobs thread - I lurk there a lot, hoping someone will actually advertise a job...)? You should do whatever you want right now - once you have a family, it becomes a little harder. Honestly, if I had known that I'd have a baby so young, I would've traveled my ass off and moved all over the world first. And earning a lot of money is a huge bonus.

How small are those aboriginal communities? I'm Native American, so it probably wouldn't be a big deal for me to move to one, but I don't want to be totally isolated.

Try going for dark colors first? Purple is pretty great. Florals is a huge jump from blacks though - I have a hard time with patterns or anything that could possibly look busy.

Well, there is crossdressing in San Francisco - I grew up across the bay in Oakland. But yea, not so common. But that's ok - there are tons of guys that do it in private, and tons of girls who like their guys doing it!

Yea - I would have a huge problem being a second class citizen. I have a strong sense of fairness and I really, REALLY can't stand it when people are treated badly (unless it's fair to be treating them badly - hee). I would have an even bigger problem with anyone looking down on my daughter.

I'd move to Canada in a heartbeat! I could become a Canadian citizen faster than America will ever get universal healthcare. Actually - I really do think it's beautiful, and less dangerus. I have a BA in Anthropology - if I had cared enough to do well in school, I could go for an MA. But I preferred to never crack a book, do half my homework/essays, and just graduate to get the hell out already. On the plus side - I'm very good at making people think I did a lot of work and coming up with awesome essays an hour before they're due! I can't get into the anthropology field with just a BA (unless I want to get paid nothing), so I'm looking to be an office manager, admin. assistant, or hr manager/hr assistant. I prefer working for smaller companies, and have over ten years experience working in admin. asst. and office management positions. So if you see anything good, let me know. And if you ever need help finding some clothing, let me know!

How did you come up with the name, Sventington?

My job sucks bunny balls. It's low paying, and of very low interest, but it's also fairly innocuous and I have time to mess around a bit on the web. Hence the bunny balls, and not, like, rabid chimpanzee balls.

I don't really want to move to Qatar. I have a daughter, so I feel like I should go somewhere that would be fairly easy and not too expensive for my parents to visit. They would hire a hitman if I took her too far from them. I'm thinking Canada or the UK is probably as far as I could go without them throwing the biggest of hissies (and by "biggest of hissies" I do mean hiring a hitman to take me downnnntowwnnnnn - I'm only somewhat joking).

How do you look crossdressing? Some guys can totally pull it off. Besides, didn't you know? It's totally the IN thing right now! I crossdress too - it's just more acceptable for girls to wear jeans and old t-shirts...

The thing that's great about pool halls, is that if you're good at playing, you can make a buck and look really fucking cool. But I would have lost a few dollars, and probably just gotten my ass slapped a few times. D'oh! On the plus side, I could have met a grizzled Harley dude who would've gotten my name tattooed on his arm (I fell in love with motorcycle guys when I was about ten, and saw a dude in a leather vest, covered in tattoos, hoisting his kids on his shoulders at a theme park and just basically being the sweetest dad ever).

I liked the toughness of gangs as well. It seemed nice, to have the type of family that would back you, fight for you, tease the hell out of you but love you the entire time - that sort of thing. I also could have possibly learned how to fight, because even though I look like I could take someone down, I secretly doubt my bitch-kickin' abilities.

I do not doubt your bitch-kickin' abilities. I have no idea what you look like, but for some reason I think you could poke someone's eyes out with surprising strength and accuracy.

Awesome about the library gig! My friend has a masters in librarianism (ok - I made up the title, but it is a masters in how to be a librarian, I just don't know the correct term) and can't find a librarian job to save her life, let alone in a uni (which is her dream job).

I'm the Office Manager/HR type. I have a degree in Anthropology, but my career has always been in an office. If you know of anyone hiring, let me know - I'd seriously move out of the country for a good job. I have a job now - it's just not that great.

Absolutely - although with a partner in crime, I probably would've actually ended up in pool halls and with a motorcycle boy!

I don't know why I related so much to The Outsiders instead of the other books (I did also really like Tex) - but it really was the first book that got me REALLY into reading, and writing, and, of course, gangs.

So what're you doing in a small mining town in a northern province of Canada? Did you grow up there? Job? Is it beautiful, at least? I want to move to Jasper, but I'm guessing if I have trouble finding a job in the US, as an immigrant I'd have even a harder time finding a job in a small town like Jasper.

Nice tights often win favors.

No no no - the Karate Kid was Ralph Machio, and he played Johnny in The Outsiders. I feel like you need an SE Hinton education.

I totally agree about the Motorcycle Boy and the cop. The Motorcycle boy was good and harmless (unless, apparently, someone fucked with his brother - but that should be expected), but because he just saw things a little differently, he was persecuted.

I remember being in sixth grade and actually being able to convince a girl at my school that I regularly played in pool halls, and hung out with "my gang" which was headed by "the Motorcycle Boy."

Rumble Fish (the book) is good - The Outsiders was my favorite, but I thought Rumble Fish made a better book than a movie. But then again, the movie really broke a lot of ground (for that time), so that kinda made it excellent too. I read all the SE Hinton books before seeing the movies. I just remember, after reading The Outsiders, how I REALLY wished that gangs still only used fists and knives so I could join one and fucking kick ass and roam around with misfits. Of course, I lived in Oakland, CA, where there were actual gangs, so joining one would've equaled a really bad idea.

C. Thomas Howell was Ponyboy in The Outsiders movie. I totally wanted Johnny just to go away already, and a character played by me to join in. I am assuming that ponyboys like to be ridden, after all. Goo!

Did you ever find a less expensive blouse? If not - just get a friend to buy it for you - it's not a big hassle to stick a blouse in an envelope and ship it to Canada. You could always promise to send them back something Canadian - like...errrmmm...maple syrup, or possibly a hockey player.

Ahh - see, I'm a shameless S.E. Hinton fan. Basically, any movie made from one of her books, any actors who were in those movies - love it/them all. I was just looking at what C. Thomas Howell has been up to.

You like Rumblefish! I don't really have much of a comment about it, other than it makes me happy to know of someone who has even heard of that movie, let alone likes it! YAY!