Hyper Music, Space Dementia, that's more my style! Rock on! lol

I'd love it if they let go a bit more now that Matt's got no one to embarass, you know? Their performances were more exciting when they played cheap instruments and then destroyed them at the end of each gig! I know they're like... 31 or 32 or something, but that doesn't by any means mean they have to grow up! lol

God, Remind me i never want to get old and boring! Never! The wild side of the music scene is always where i've belonged! I'll never give up until i'm doing something that includes crashing drums, clashing guitar riffs, and as many gigs as possible! I'll even just be the person who tags along with bands fixing their equipment! I'll do anything! There's nothing that compares to the high that music (especially live music) gives me! Unless you count playing music too... If i end up locked up in an office with computer keyboards tap-tap-tapping in my ears all day long and... god, no... It doesn't bear thinking about!

People always tell me: oh that's what you'll want one day, office jobs pay well, you'll want a quiet life one day...

Never! they so don't get it! Never... No, never! I'll never end up surviving like that. i want to live!!! I want to be insane and stupid and... irresponsible and... mad! I want to have fun! What else is life for?! I don't believe in an afterlife, so i better make the most of my time, coz i ain't getting it back. Stupid, boring, boring, boring people! Just another day in the office! How could they do that?

The second my education is over i'll never ever get up at and go out and stay in the same building for six or seven hours and then go home and go to bed! That's not who i am! This is what i'm doing and i plan to make it stop asap! As soon as i get out, i'm never going back.

God, i can't even remember what has happened in my short life! That's how bollocks it's been! So bloody boring! And if this shitty lifestyle means my life is going to keep flying away from me, then i'm going to live all out and make it slow down. Even if there's an afterlife then i'm going to hell, so i'm not in any hurry to die! My life keeps running away! I'm thirteen! How?! Swear to god i was five just yesterday! It can't carry on. Even if it does at least it'll be more interesting when i get what i want.

Sorry... I write a lot when i get all passionate about something! lol, sorry about that.