Wow XD That's the second today to react that way watching my drawings XD I showed the drawings to a girl who went to the same secondairy school as I. She follows some classes with me. And we had French and Art together. I took my sketchbook to watch a drawing I had made yesterday (show you later) and she saw Eccleston and she was: No! You DIDN'T draw THAT! And I was, shocked by her reaction, like... I haven't stolen it or something... yeah, it's mine? XD

It was indeed an adrenaline kick, talking about something you like (or a reading a poem in front of your city, before the two minutes silence to think about the deaths of WO II)! I loved it! But other than interesting topics, I just get REALLY nervous, and suck at speeching. Well, even WHEN it's interesting I get pretty nervous. At best the nerves react AFTER the speech (which was the weird case of my poem).

Yep! That's the one. That was the name on the tip of my tongue! (UGH, I have the weird habbit of making things rhyme today -sigh- )

O that sucks that you don't feel better yet My mind plays tricks with me too. I think its also because you hear a damn lot about deceases on the telli. Like cancer. Both my granddads died of it. A few years ago even my 5yearold dog. So sometimes I DO worry about it.

But when I think about the problems/symptones of don't know what (probably hormones not working correctly yet) I keep telling myself that I can go to the doctor 'later'. And the fact that dementia and diabetes is in the family doesn't really worry me.... Weird

An old school friend of me suddenly asked me: You said you could have diabetes.... but you aren't 'big'! (I'm probably the opposite, might be too skinny). That's the fun thing (sarcasm) of too much attention to diabetes. People warn you for one type of it (where you eat too much and wrong things; and get 'big') but completely ignore the genetic type. Well, yeaaaaaaaah..... the harm is already done right? So now I tell someone my mom and grandma and uncle have diabetes people tend to think they are fat (well.... wouldn't agrue about the uncle part...)

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