its natural for your feelings to be mixed up as over the last few weeks you have been through a lot of trauma which will leave you unsettled for a while. And from the questions you seem confused about id say the answer to all of them is yes. its fine to cry, its fine not too and its fine to not know how to think. I think everyone has their own unique reaction to someone close to them passing away. Some people cant stop crying for weeks, other people cant cry at all, and some try and blank the situation from their minds but there isnt a right or wrong way to grieve. I think the only thing to do id just keep ploughing through and keep the hope of feeling peace in your mind. i hope that might have answered your questions a bit, but sorry if they havnt.

thank you ammee i hope it goes ok too, i think il feel less scared once ive moved in and got my new room sorted and met a few people. Until then its the waiting to move thats making me nervous

this is mcfly's myspace page http://www.myspace.com/mcfly they have got a few songs on their music player that you could listen to. see what you think. Not everyone likes them but they are a secret passion of mine

love you

xxx