oh ammee im sorry to hear you are feeling worse. i think you are doing so so well. My friend went through a similar situation a few years ago when her mum passed away and she told me it was like a rollercoaster. Sometimes things go well and things start getting better but sometimes things can suddenly drop and get worse . But she said eventually it begins to get more balanced. Just keep hanging on and it will get better soon.

things are much better with my parents thanks, although there is still a bit of tension. Im packing at the moment to move out to go to Uni, which is pretty scary but also quite exciting

and a few days ago i met Dougie and Harry from a UK band called Mcfly. Im not sure many people like them on these boards

love you loads

xxxx