holy god. haha that's a lot of areas to live, seems kinda bittersweet. seattle is amazing, went there with a few friends a couple years ago. that's just so cool to travel all around like that though, especially as a kid. being in a lot of places and seeing all different kinds of people is so foreign haha. literally, i guess.

honestly, (at least for me), it's not even just communicating online. like there's a ton of people i love spending time with and talking to and plenty of women i should be asking out on dates and all that jazz, but maintaining relationships like that (and not just romantic ones, like any type of relationship) requires a lot of time and energy. so it's not just like online, if anything i feel like i'm way more honest about anything online because there's not that face to face you know. i feel like there's less biology in the way with text communication, it feels much less restricted when it comes to sharing ideas and learning things that can actually change who you are or what you think. in person i always feel like i need to put on a show as to how i should respond to a person, whereas online things are much more direct.

hahahah that's too bad your peers aren't very computer literate, it seems like everyone i know is these days. WRITING IS AN ART, I APPRECIATE YOUR GRAMMAR.

hahahahaha i also appreciate the concern, but for reals though you don't need to worry about me at all. the allusion to suicide was in pretty poor taste now that i think about it, especially because i'm not suicidal at all, haha like i promise my life is fantastic. the reason why i wrote that is because like i dont understand what i did to deserve such a great life, when there's millions of people who are infinitely more driven and resourceful but still have to live in squalor, and it just makes me really angry. like there's so many people who can fuck up so much and not have to worry about shit (think the kardashians, your typical bureaucratic politician, any talentless scum that essentially steals money for a living; you know, like a social parasite), then meanwhile EVERY FUCKING DAY i see people working like fifty fucking jobs living in shitty apartments, with no money to spare. and like you know it could have been anybody, im seriously so fucking happy that it's not the case for me you know. it's really actually motivating to think i've been given all these opportunities to become something great, it'd be absolutely unforgivable to waste any of it because there's people in this world who would kill for what i have, in fact there's people who HAVE killed for what i have.

so, i'm a math major, to answer your other question i figured it was an extremely marketable skill to have, and it's really interesting to think that studying math is sort of defining the way the universe works on the most fundamental level, it's one of the few subjects that actually seems to have intrinsic value to me. not to mention that our society SEVERELY needs people to be mathematically/scientifically literate, you know so even if im too stupid to do everything even if i get halfway there that's an accomplishment in of itself, like the things i learn are more important than earning the degree, IMAGINE THAT...

hahaha online activism changing the world one hashtag at a time huh?