fadeddusk
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Lol I've had dreams where I was hanging all over matt. But he doesn't get annoyed at me in my dreams. Last time I had a dream about hanging all over matt he was like "hmm...I don't really think you should be touching me like that in public but I'd be glad to take you back to my house and you can do what you want to me." I'll let you imagine for your self how the dream ended
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What does "borderline" even mean?
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Meh. I'd be unhappy anyway. Just the kind of person I am and I can't see how it would cause any stress at all on him.
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Yeah. I think about him for ever. And I would trade the whole rest of my life for even just a day of being with matt. Hugging him, kissing him, being loved by him, and just knowing, you are with him.
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LOL that would be so worth it!!! Your right! I know many people believe that, but I'm not one of those people. I believe that life happens, you die, and then everyone eventually forgets you. I know it's a pretty depressing view on life, but it's what I believe. Anyway, I truly feel matt is the only one I will ever love. Sometimes i actually start crying because of the fact that I will never actually be able to be with matt
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I could never meet him. I mean, I want to, badly, but I may end up arrested in the end. Because I would just be acting normal and talking to him then I would grab him and start making out with him yeah I have the music and the dreams, but it isn't enough. It's like if you are dying of thirst, and drink half an ounce of water. It's enough to keep you just hanging on, but not enough to satisfy you. That's how it is for me, the music and the dreams keep me just hanging on, but I'll never actually be happy without Matt truly loving me.
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I know . I will always love matt no matter what happens. I'd cut his name in my heart, Ill destroy this world for him, I know I want to feel his pain. (space dementia) basically I live for him all these years. Im so sick of this space and I wish I could be far away (host) but I keep living for him, and in the end, I never get him, and this was all pointless in the end because that's how I feel. I live for him, just hoping and dreaming for my whole life. But when I die, I will end up with nothing. I'll never end up getting matt i want him badly, but it's not just want. It's like how a person says that they *want* a glass of water. They actually need it, but they just say that they want it. My life is pointless if I don't get matt :'(
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I feel happiness and complete depression at the same time. Happiness because I had a great time with matt in the dream and depression because I know I can never have him
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3 years and yes we should go to Matt Bellamy Fantasies land.
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Yeah I hate living in Reality. I wanna move to the land of Matt Bellamy Fantasies and yes. It is, but I need matt. I need him for real, not just in my dreams. Sometimes it feels like I survive through all my sadness to get to my dreams, but it is pointless in the end. I feel that way because it is true. I know deep down that I'll never actually be with Matt. He is the reason I'm alive, and I'm never gonna be with him anyway. Matt said himself: "and we love and we hope and we die. All to no avail all to no avail!!!"
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Thanks. I just wish I didn't have to wake up. I wish I could stay in my Matt dreams foreverrrr. I wish it could be real. But I know it will never be real . Sometimes I actually start crying because I know I will never be with matt. I just want him to love me. I want him to kiss me, I want him to touch me. I want him to hug me, I want him to hold me. But I know this will never be it's not only a strong love. I NEED him. I seriously don't know how much longer I will be able to live without him :'(
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Lol yes I do. Not about Dom though. Just matt. I wish that all of my best matt dreams would just come true already. Luckly in my dreams matt doesn't leave
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I would be DEAD if I talked in my sleep omg I would be sooo upset if matt left during that time
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The first few sentances are true about me too but two nights ago I had a dream about Eclipse. Lol I had watched new moon with my sister
